hello.

I've lost my love for blogging...

If I don't blog in the next month, I'm going to delete this:)

(I don't think anybody reads this)

tired.

hello.

apologies for this, but ... some things can't always be tucked away in a neat little corner.

I don't know what's going to happen today, tomorrow or a year from now.

I don't know what someone like me is meant to do with a life like this.

I don't know if right now, I should be scared of what's to come, thankful for the pity, upset of the loss or just confused at it all.

I don't know if I should let things take its course, how it's meant to be, or do something about what's happening...

and I guess that's the ironic thing thing really ... after all of the times I've complained ... because you don't know ... now I'm the one who's completely clueless.

because the truth is ... I expected something like this, it was never something I'd thought about or even considered as an option.

but maybe it's good that not everything goes according to plan.

there's no fun in that.

so anyway, here I am writing this, hoping that the right person will read and understand what's written ... and one day say something in return to my mindless ramblings.

english, we love it.

The love Erik has for Christine is obsessive and destructive, whereas the love she has for him is a mixture of pity and her trying to put something in place the hole left by her deceased father. Her love for her childhood friend Raoul is a lot stronger, and is a genuine love which is felt by the both of them. It can be argued that Erik’s love is merely an obsession, but when he finally releases her we see his phase of obsessive love pass, and it is replaced by a different sort of love. It can be argued further that it never pass as at the end of the novel it is suggested that Erik has committed suicide following Christine’s departure with Raoul/ Erik understands that Christine’s feelings are not as strong as his, but he wants her to be happy with Raoul. Erik’s infatuation for Christine differs significantly to the love she shares with Raoul, which is a much more generic kind of love when considering the era in which the novel was written. Towards the end of the story, Erik tells Christine ‘I know you love him’ I believe that this quotation sums up Erik’s feelings towards Christine and his journey with her. He cannot accept the fact that she does not love him back yet he is forced to realise that her love for Raoul is a lot stronger than any love she ever had for him. This quotation encompasses all the different kinds of love that Erik feels for her, the true degree of which is demonstrated when he says this to her and finally releases her.

brumbrum.

today, i went into london:)

it was ... different.

nice(:

although, the make-up people in debenhams really need to work on their people skills..

So anyway, the summer holidays are now drawing to a close and I haven't done as much work as I expected to do. So, it looks like I have a lot of work to do, in a very short space of time.

I have a feeling that my whole 'become a super human revision machine' plan is going to fall to pieces ...

anyway, I'm off to sleep, and possibly read Lolita some more:)

good night.

:)

irony, fire and complete fucking cunts.

reading 2009 :)

kings of leon, placebo, alexisonfire, florence and the machine, little boots, anti-flag, the ghost of a thousand, atreyu, bring me the horizon, la roux, deadmau5, lady sovereign, lostprophets, crystal castles, kids in glass houses, yeahyeahyeahs, eagles of death metal, enter shikari, the prodigy, yeahyeahyeahs, bloc party & radiohead.

music-wise, very good.

as far as people go, well ... maybe that shouldn't be mentioned.

the week ahead?

probably shit, following something particularly shitty just happening.

yay.

WHY?

why did i think it would be a good idea not to sleep?

why did i not pack everything perfectly so i had the opportunity to sleep tonight?

why am i not sleeping now?

I AM SO INCREDIBLY TIRED.

reading list.

friday:

kings of leon

placebo

florence and the machine

the horrors

billy talent

the ghost of a thousand

marmaduke duke

bombay bicycle club.

saturday:

the prodigy

enter shikari

eagles of death metal

patrick wolf

rise against

bring me the horizon

go:audio

sunday:

radiohead

bloc party

vampire weekend

the view

noah and the whale

kids in glass houses

gallows

crystal castles

lethal bizzle :)

chase and status

these are all the bands that i hope to see at reading .. although i very much doubt that i'll be able to see all of them :)

ahhhhhh.

so..it's nearly two in the morning.

& what am I doing? FARMVILLE.

seriously, the most addictive thing in the world.

anyway.

I have finally finished the small amount of work I had to do at Greggs and I must say that it really wasn't that bad. I'm finally getting a few things ready for Reading which is now only a matter of days away:) After realising that I couldn't really afford three weeks in Egypt I decided that Reading would be much better anyway, as I hate very hot & very cold weather:)

there are several reasons why I chose to blog tonight rather than squeeze in some much needed revision.

• most of my night has been wasted on farmville anyway..
• I'm much to tired to take anything in anyway
• I realised that my blog has become increasingly depressing and void of anything at all interesting; so I thought I'd attempt to change that.
• I wanted to put up these amazing pictures of emma watson, who never ceases to amaze me.
  tomorrow...after shopping for reading supplies I'm heading off to the library to cram in some revision for that awful test that Ms Baldwin has in store for us...oh joy.

goodnight world.

ABCDEF.

so.

results day came, results day went.

things were realised.

one of them being that i'm going to have to spend a lot more time working, and a lot less time blogging.

i want a pig.

J.R.R. TOLKIEN♥

I finished The Hobbit.

It was pretty fucking good.

currently pooing myself about Thursday and considering cleaning my room before it gets even worse:)

Reading soon,woo.

summer.

it's funny when stuff brings you back to the year before.

last summer seems like it was a decade ago.

gives me rushes.

i'm a fire and i burn burn burn tonight.

what it feels like to be a rebel.

wildchild, that's me.

well ... that's not exactly true right now.

I'm sitting in skanky pj bottoms and a horrible smelling top with a rather large hippo-like tummy due to eating:

wheetos, steak, beans on toast, a bakewell tart, biscuits, pizza, spaghetti bolognase, crisps and a bounty. oh, and some mikado and a chocolate that tasted of vomit.

now that's glamour.

don't really fancy waffling about my day.

what i will say is: some people truly baffle me.

my immortal<3

I have nearly made 150 posts, now that is an achievement:)

one of the only pictures of last nights meal ... definately not the most flattering thing in the word but the night was a good one :) my chocolate puddle was yum, very very yum.

so, now the holidays are half over, and this was a horrible thing to realise.

I was planning to write a longer post, but i'm hungry, so i'm off to make some toast :)

night.

X

is this my second post today?

today was a mixture of things.

the first thing it was, was somewhat of a reunion.

I haven't seen Robyn since that fateful shitty (quite literally) night at roisin's, and that was the only time I saw her over summer. It was quite nice to tell each other what we've been up to and pay a quick visit to studio where me and robyn bought the final part of our Steve Madeen collection, oh joy.

"I'll fix you girls a price" that made me feel special:)

after being given the day off of work tomorrow as I'm apparently 'not of any use that day' I've planned to venture out to london, after I wait for my mother to get back of course ... so my trip will probably end up being rather rushed and I may not even make it to all the places I want to go to ... thanks mum.

speaking of my mother, she returned today. nothing really else to say about that other than the house is now a lot louder, and maybe a bit messier.

11 days until those horrible little results come out, ohhhh:S

help?

newport living.

meet bilbo, the lonely bollard.

thanks to bilbo, this happened:

:(

the chanel couture collection autumn/winter 2009-10 is slightly amazing.

check it out.

baaa.

I should really stop buying gift bags before I buy the gifts.

I have done this for three birthdays this months, damn.

I went shopping today:) and was rather pleased with the new addition to the Starbucks menu.

hello Pomegranate and Peach Frappachino, hold me.

I haven't really got that many interesting things to say, other than my ribs hurt:(

and that isn't really that interesting ...

so, I'm off to read more of the hobbit.

pip pip!

oh yeah, I watched Antichrist last night.

and it slowly raped my mind :(

days.

there are 19 days until results day:S

I find that quite scary, but also a tiny bit exciting.

today, I plan on completing The Hobbit, which is actually a lovely little book.

oh yeah, coco before chanel was pretty damn good.

:)

the son of a preacher man.

so, yesterday chloe, charlotte and I travelled into lovely london with the intentions of visiting the V&A. Well, naturally, we were too lazy to go there when it reached three a clock:)

so, instead we went around london like the cool people we are.

and yes, I am aware of the fact that I look positively awful in this picture but, it was a fun day:)

I also found 'fantastic beasts and where to find them' and 'quidditch through the ages' in fopp ... so I need to go back there with some money and get them:) It will actually make my summer if I own those two books.

oh yeah, painting. really not as calming as it seems at first.

maybe this is because I've recently realised that I'm an awful painter, and really should be thankful of the C I got at GCSE?

I'm still putting a picture up of my lovely creation when it's done though ... and I'll clearly state what it's meant to be, because I have no doubt that it won't actually look like it :$

Au Revoir!

hmp.

well, I'm back from Fareham.

today:

beach, fun but horrible weather.

leaving, feeling guilty but I really wanted to get home.

getting home, horrible atmosphere following an argument between my mum and my sister, bob's gone.

that is the last thing I'm gonna say about it, now it's off to bed for some reading:)

after much deliberation, today I purchased The Hobbit, and I plan on reading it tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be done fairly quickly and can move on to The Fellowship of the Ring. I genuinly look forward to reading both of these.

so now, I'm tired...

and I want my bed.

good night world

adventures

Friday.
On friday I went up to Rochdale in Kent with my mum, my nan and molly. I have a million and one pictures to put up but I don't have my camera stuff with me at the moment, so they're coming later. Anyway, Rochdale (I'm pretty sure that I'm spelling it wrong) was a dream:) there was't a single modern shop there in the town, which i adored ... I went in what seemed like a hundred antique shops and had lunch in a tiny little tea shop. after I bought myself some beautiful vintage suitcases (photos coming) I went up to the castle, which was divine.

Saturday
Saturday saw me giving the lord of the rings trilogy a chance, although I didn't get very far as I only saw the first of the three films. But still, I plan on buying the trilogy at some point and giving it a go because as much as I hate to admit it, I kind of enjoyed the fellowship of the ring. (Just to clarify, it's nowhere near to taking the place of my beloved Harry Potter)

Sunday
which is today, if only for a little bit longer.
After doing some lovely animal bonding I hopped into town for a present for the father, turns out he rather enjoyed it ;) so yeah, long story short: went town on my way home saw stans who I took back to my house and raped and then I hopped on a train to jolly old fareham. (well, several trains ... thankyou jubilee line for closing) so yeah, here I am, in Fareham, getting rather angry with the large amount of wine that my dad is drinking.

but I'm determined to make this work:)
so, good night world, sleep tight,
don't let the bed bugs bite;)

oops:)

by a fortunate mistake I appear to have done everything about an hour too early, owing to the fact that I set my alarm for 6.30 rather than 7.30....I didn't realise this until just now.

So I have a spare our until I'm off to kent, giving me time for tea and some lovely breakfast:) yum.

oh yes, stanley linked me to this, please enjoy:

evanna lynch is a goddess.

although, I'm not completely sure that that's definately her, it seems all a bit too good to be true.

But still, perfection.

so, yesterday I watched the informers ... and now that I've finally calmed down over the rather blunt and unexpected (by me) ending, I've realised that it really wasn't a bad film. In fact, I kind of liked it, despite getting angry about how it ended:)

anyway, off to kent in a bit, woo:)

au revoir

here we go again<3

so, I went to Bury St Edmunds today.

here's a picture from the most amazing little shop, it has a really weird name and is filled with everything i want in my bedroom.

I found this picture of Dita Von Teese and I just enjoyed remembering how mesmerizing she is:)

so yeah, day one of the summer holidays has gone quite nicely, and it's only going to get better.

oh yes,

happy birthday daddy :)

'please remember december'

time is making a fool of me.

think

a fairly short post tonight, on account of my rather odd mood.

like, you know when you feel like nothing can phase

you? make you happy, or make you sad?

nothing can excite you, affect you in any way, because you're just sitting in your own little world.

anyway, let's talk some sense for a second.

so, the summer holidays are finally here, and I'm not sure if that's as much of a good thing as everybody's making it out to be, but I guess I'll see soon enough:) I think I have enough plans to stop myself from going a bit mental...

as I end this blog to finally get some sleep ready for my journey to bury st edmunds tomorrow, let me leave you with this...

it's a truly lovely place to visit; especially when you're a bit down.

good night all.

hmm.

I just wanted to put this up before i went to sleep.

a rather pleasant evening, at the beginning especially.

now it's time for bed:) good night.

00:23

In bed, drinking my first cup of tea today:)

for those who are interested, it's a cup of Ceylon tea, yum.

my run of bad luck this week has been pretty amusing.

for example:

-leaving my phone in a cab

-losing my oyster card

-losing my umbrella, then a downpour occurs

-an explotion of dr pepper, just as harry potter is starting

and so on and so forth, it's really quite funny :)

Other than that, this week has been quite interesting. On monday I had a lovely walk with danielle in which we plotted the murder of 'five n benn', our bike riding stalker. And on Tuesday I stuck to my usual habit of bumming around in an attempt to recover from the horror that was ms Baldwin's lesson :) Wednesday was Harry Potter day, and I must say that David Yates has truly outdone himself (but that isn't me saying he's a good director or anything). There were some really good shots and of course I cried my eyes out at the end like the little child that I am:) Today I spent a large amount of my time brainstorming outfits for tomorrow's party, and eventually we just went back to the original plan anyway, so yeah:)

tomorrow, Pandora, Lolita and Death will brave the streets of Enfield showcasing their new look:) oh, this will be fun.

okay, ten minutes of blogging is quite enough I think, time for a sleeps.

night night

i am going out,

for a rather large number of hours.

there will be no bloggings for a while.

enjoy my absence.

beautiful words:)

"i miss you so much :( i really need you lately, keep crying for no reason lol:) needed someone to just be there and not ask questions, in comes the range (L)

i love you. always<3"

my friends make me happy:)

and so does HARRY POTTER ON WEDNESDAY dskghsfkdgjfdhgkjfdhkjghdf

I am so incredibly excited.

some lovely rebel hunks for youuu.

also, I just found my old diary from last year.

it's actually hilarious and includes a two page tribute to ruth winters, lol.

october

my only peace.

[maybe one day I'll be good enough, maybe one day I'll be able to make some sense.

or maybe I'm just completely kidding myself.

fuck.

I spend so long waiting for the bad things to happen that I

completely ignore the good things.

I keep making that same mistake, and nothing good

ever comes from it really.

so I should stop I guess.]

glad that's over:)

okay, so thanks to a midnight phone call to my dad, I now feel a lot better:)

about everything.

the best part is that it was only a 17 second conversation.

ellie is fucking amazing:)

and that's why I love her.

birds in my ear and a devil on my shoulder.

so, it was the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince premiere last night:) I thought it would be nice to whack some pictures up of it, mainly for my own enjoyment.

Jessie Cave really didn't look all that great :/

however evanna lynch looked amazing, as always.

<3

right, time for some dog walking before I jump in the bath and watch O again in the hope that I won't fall asleep this time:)

lovely.

hold on.

"tell me do you feel the way I feel, cause nothing else is real in the la-la land machine"

I don't really know what to make of today.

weekend was nice, let's hope the week is nice.

friday will be fun:)

maths will be poo.

erm.

this has got to be one of the first times in which I can't think of anything I want to write...

other than...isn't it funny how things change?

Perhaps I'll write a bit more in the morning.

Perhaps I won't write anything for a while.

DAY.

that was me, being a starfish:)

soo, last night was rather enjoyable.

although I'm a little bit freaked out by certain australian's somehow getting my number:S

RIP MOG :(

good morning.

"If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals."

ah I do love me some sirius black in the morning.

but now it's time for me to get ready:)

aurevoir;)

blogging+babysitting.

CCS Prom 2009. not amazing but at least I saw some old faces.

I am currently drowning myself in vitamin c to attempt to stop whatever's making me feel so ill, I'm hoping that it works :) fingers crossed...
as soon as kid number three gets off the ps3 i'm going to watch corpse bride, until then it's potter time:) woo.

i love stories.

once upon a time there was a girl. and that girl was ever so deluded, what a shame.

"hello?"

"hello" there's so many things that I have to say.

"what do you want"

"erm i wanted to say something" I don't know if I've got the strength to do this but if something happens i want to know that it's been said and that i've not nothing to worry about when that day comes because i have tried, more than you'd expect from one person

BANG. and then it all turns to shit.

she bricks it.

and they don't care enough to wonder at all.

and if this was the way things were supposed to go I would have known by now and so I figured that its time to try to change it all. the thing I want to change gets in the way and so I'm still asking myself what exactly I've gained from this and all I can say is nothing.

and it's that one word that gets me every fucking time. that word will be the death of me, I swear.

but it's when that chill comes and i remember. and i remember how without this it's a whole lot worse, well as far as you and i can remember anyway. so then it comes to that moment where you have to ask yourself questions, questions that you don't like and don't want to answer.

everything gets twisted. everything starts to change.

and then i remember that i've got something to get me through this, and her name's amie louise bell :)

aha

sudden realizations are complete cunts.
as are the things that make them happen.


i guess its just something you can grow to get used to at some point.
as much as you'd prefer not to its going to happen anyway.

looks like great fun, how excellent that i'm not going to miss out :)

a post.

warning, rant below.

so this post began really nice and happy.

and now it's just me being pissed off.

my internet's being a compelte arse. and people have also taken to acting like pricks. oh how excellent.

as much as i don't want to moan i'd quite like to vent to something that won't turn around and have a go at me for moaning.

i shouldn't let pathetic things get on top of me but i really really can't help it, especially when it's just there glaring you in the face.

PATHETIC. man I am fucking annoyed, but fuck it, i'm not having my week ruined just yet taaaa.

rant over, it is safe to read now.

ah that feels a little bit better. happy days.

my day has consisted of: maths, cinema, naps, lappy tappy. it has been rather nice:)

i've realised that perhaps the fact that i forgot to take my hurty chest pills (which btw i am now suffering heavily for) may have influenced my somewhat terrible mood, let's just hope that it doesn't last that long.

I have several things that i would like to sort out before my bedtime, and I'm off to do them now :)

NIGHTY NIGHT.

a fairly boring post today.

i've drifted through the past few days, and i haven't really been myself or understood a lot of what i'm doing.

so that's that.

i guess i'm feeling fairly happy at the moment...

please don't let that change?

...

ohyes.

I've been lusting after these shoes in ms selfridge for like a month now, and they're in the sale but I promised myself I'd save up, how horrible.

damn you ms selfridge, you're just teasing me now.

lovely weekend :)

so, an eventful weekend, kind of.

after seeing Transformers twice (it was excellent) it was then off to town for daddy's day shopping :) my plans for summer solstice did not completely happen, due to the weather. But I have a thing today which will be fun :)

'I hate men, excluding animals ... except cats'

what a lovely night of man hating, despite letting tiredness get the better of us.

it's chokey timeee.

oh, and one more thing before I depart.

I really miss my bell<3

:)

"Eggtub?!"

i started writing a huge list of stuff to replace the old one on amie's broken computer, but it had like 200 things on it and i was still going, so maybe not.

i do love my bell :)

forever baby:)

today:) has been rather nice, ta. I don't have a lot of blog worthy things to say ...

this post has taken like two hours, on account of me falling asleep (:

mm, I'm tired, so I'll finish this tomorrow...nighty night.

"these four walls

...they whisper to me"

mondays aren't great, but today was alright:)

I'm extremely glad that head student stuff is out of the way, and now all I have to worry about it is getting this work done for tomorrow, yay. so yeah, happy days.

I'm indulging in some Bring Me The Horizon for the first time in ages, and oh, did I miss it.

but, there are wayy too many feet in the pray for plagues video and it does disturb me slightly:)

also, I got three phonecalls consisting of lovely Demi Lovato, it was quite amazing.

homework time I think ...

la la la

no post on Sunday!

well, not this Sunday;)I'm glad I can make myself laugh.

ahh, lovely sunday. I have yet to prepare some kind of speech for tomorrow, but that can wait, it's not going to be that good anyway:)

my weekend so far:

Spontenaity* with Miss Bell.

starbucks, lovaty dresses, weight gain, new shoes, elliebums, midnight snacks, nice parts of enfield, hating selena gomez, burger king and their unwanted apple pies, ho

t dog stalls that just aren't the same as the stevo ones, very large shoe fetishes, skipping, reading excitement and horrible goodbyes.

I'm not going to stop loving my Bell, ever :)

Elena's birthday

lots of hock, burned hands, being a complete hypocrite;), spiling drinks, singing to pink, weird guys named jack who freaks everyone out, too many pringles, vomit in the mouth(yuck), major height boosts, accidental invasions of privacy, talking too loudly and hopefully not being a complete idiot.

"must have been something sent me out of my head, with the words so radical and not what I meant"

101th post;)

Hello world.so, Belltimes were officially announced last night. After feasting on melted chocolate, coffee, burger king (with a rankish apple pie that I really didn't want) and a little bit of Edward Cullen (which lasted all of about half an hour as we both fell asleep)

so, we're off to town in a second, both looking like tramps.

YAY reading line up!

oh, how excellent.

if you want some lovely hormones, just swing by and take some, cause i've got a wholeee lott(Y)

I don't know why but I've become terrible company recently, ranting at whoever will listen and just going off in fits of anger and frustration half the time. For this I'm gonna blame hormones? although it's not their fault, it's a mixture of me just generally having a shitty outlook on life and getting a tiny amount of sleep.

I'm so fucking tired that I may actually explode now, do farewell and goodnight.

good day tomorrow please?:)

happy

pictures make me happy:)

oh.

end of exams.

Suddenly my cellphone's blowing up with your ring tone,

I hestitate to answer it, you sound so alone.

GOODBYE.

mmm.

I think I should go to bed now, I'm tired and need to revise tomorrow morning.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck, I'm shitting it.

so bed now, library 8-1 tomorrow, manic revision for the rest of the evening.

I swear, if my mum comes back drunk and wakes me up I'm going to throw her off my balcony:) I need to get a good sleep pattern if I want to get into routine by Monday.

so, I'm off to catch my precious 8 hours of recommended sleep, maybe 9 if I'm being really naughty.

nighty nighttt

emma watson

is my absolute idol.

I've just watched some of Ballet Shoes again and remembered how well she played Pauline Fossil. I'm beginning to think that she is actually perfect.

So I had my maths exams today, which really didn't go well so I've picked an alternative university that I wouldn't mind going to if I don't get into Edinburgh, which is looking highly likely at the moment to be honest. I also saw Drag Me To Hell, which made me wet my pants slightly. At some moments I was in hysterics and at others I was shitting myself, I don't know if I like that.

Providing that my money has come through I'm off to the book shop tomorrow to celebrate nearly finishing my exams, and I'm gonna buy next years school books too :) how exciting.

It's very nearly saturday morning, so I'm off to bed for what I imagine will be a very disturbed nights sleep thanks to my cinema trip, although on the plus side - milkshakes are back :)

nighty night.

9 hours of revision later

and I still don't feel ready for this damn exam.

I've got the worst headache ever, so I've stopped for a quick break before I rip my way through a C1 paper, then commit suicide after realising that I'm gonna fail c2, excellent.

"the fraction is your friend!"

take 2:)

I didn't like what I wrote last night, so I'm whopping on a new post :) how fun.

I woke up today and really didn't want to have to revise, it's been almost year since i've done some of this stuff, and I have all of two days to get it firmly stuck in my head again. After the failure that was my statistics exam, I really really need to do well on Friday :/

so, the pressure's on. I've just started on long division (harder than it sounds when you're dealing with algebra and functions) and I'm hoping to have gone through the whole course by tonight, so I can then go through C1. At least now I've learnt to actually work in my lessons rather than draw pictures of cakes and toture devices.

right, I can't take the feeling of not being ready for my maths exams, so I'm throwing myself into hardcore revision until Friday night.

goodbye world :)

a bit more blog :)

so yes, I should really be in bed preparing for some lovely exams tomorrow morning but hey, I really can't be bothered tbh:)

So, for that reason and the reason that Charlotte needs entertainment, I am blogging.

after getting some lovely threats from people who probably have aids, my stress has definately come down a fair bit, which is good because I was really starting to stress out quite a bit, damn you edexcel. my weekend has been fairly boring and consisting mainly of revision, with a couple of outings here and there. It wasn't enough to enjoy the sunshine or get a nice tan but it was enough to make my freckles come out, poo :(

I think I can safely say that I'm becoming obsessed with my C2 exam, it's pretty much all I can think about now, and I've even started to concentrate so hard on it that things that should upset me don't, because passing my c2 is more important. I guess that's a good thing because it'll make me revise harder, but I can't say I'm enjoying not being able to think about anything other than exams, and what will happen if I don't do well in them this year.

I got two very nice phone calls today, one from my nan offering to pay for either nect years reading ticket or an Ipod, woo. And one from my dad :) I'm off to see him in two weeks time and I actually can't wait, it's been like five months, which isn't long for us but our last visit was really really brief and didn't go amazingly. So yeah, I'm really looking forward to that, and then on July 15th it's Harry Potter, which means me and Bell can unite and celebrate the thing that brought us together, thankyou JK :) Also, there's that little thing called READING. ;)

I think I shouldn't go on the computer until I get new glasses, my head feels like I've been hit by a truck.

anyway, time for a quick midnight snack and then beddy byes, history exam tomorrow.

toodle pip

Guest Blog ft. 8inchesofpain

Hello.

This is a guest blog featuring me.

In this blog, I aim to explain why the blog offensive was the main factor in ending the blog war, in which President Gonze Bloggington entered Puerto Rico.

In other news, Monkey Dust is really good, and has the best soundtrack of any British animated show in the last 50 years.

"tehre is no spoon" - teh matrix

more naughtyness :)

revision posts?! deary me.

I did take a lovely picture of two gingerbread men having goodtimes but it appears that I didn't actually take it :S shit.

so that's the whole point of my post gone :( so I guess I better just go and revise ..

5 hours today, 12 tomorrow ... I'm going to murder this exam, bring it on edexcel.

my night tonight is going to consist of:

WWI, Stolypin's reforms, The creation of the USSR and the Vietnam War.

YEAH BWOIIII.

please please please don't let me fail :(

goodbye :)

a naughty little post

...but it's okay, I have done enough revision for today:)

I've finally knuckled down on my history revision after realising how much work needed doing in order to scrape a pass, so I'm glad to say that I've had a day filled with revision, oh yay.

I have about five drafts from today alone, damn you internet. (oh yes, I edited;))

All of these potential posts consisted of pretty much the same thing, which now seems quite boring now that I'm looking through them. I've been having a terrible day for technology so I'm not really enjoying blogging as much as usual ... I think perhaps, a cup of tea and then bed? I could do with a nice sleep:)

Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

night night :)

£80 in town ...

do I or don't I?

back to the street where we began

feeling as good as love you could you can

into a place where thoughts can bloom

into a place where it's nine in the afternoon.

Yep, I'm indulging in a little bit of Panic;)

back to the street, back to the place, back to the room where it all began.

So there we go, that was my little happy moment before I begin revision.

I've cancelled all my plans, which may have pissed a few people of but oh well, I need to revise  :|

these please :)

the old blogaroo ;)

Ladies and Gentlemen, I give to you ... MOTHERFUCKING BACON OMLETTE :)

So, I guess I have a lot to write about ... I won't cover it all though. 

Tuesday: Stevenage with bell, serenaded by the lovely freddie. SHA:)

Wednesday: Hannah Montana movie, way too much pizza, shopping, temporary bad mood that was apparently 'cute', adam's party, tequila amongst other things

Today: Being a complete lazy shit for the whole day, eating and pub.

There seems to be a cloud of shit hovering around the place at the moment, I'm just hoping it doesn't hit me too hard. 

FUCK YOU A LEVELS, I'M GONNA BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU :) WOOO.

"you can't find yourself, lost in your lie"

Late December back in '63

So, it's one in the morning and I'm being served a gigantic reality check by my best friend who unfortunately, knows me far better than most so I imagine I better listen to her. I think I'm going to blame my recent negativity on the fact that I really really miss her (N)

Luckily enough, we've arranged a meeting tomorrow so that I can get over myself :) very goodtimes.

After moping around the house for a good two hours complaining about not doing any revision I suddenly realised that I'm being an idiot about things, maybe I should have been reivising instead of moping, then perhaps I wouldn't have ended up getting in such a bad mood and over reacting over everything :) What a nub.

Lukcily enough I realised how ridiculous I was being when I was told off by my lovely Bell :) I do love it when she puts me in my place. I feel as though a blog is needed so that in future when I get attacked by eratic emotions I can realise it's just me being an idiot.

It's actually quite silly, I've gone from just being annoyed, to being so angry that I posted my frustrations out on YouTube to someone who actually did deserve it, the idiot and then I was caught off guard and got some of the lovely cryings as always. I haven't cried in a very very long time so I knew it was coming anyway, lol. 

This may be my last ever post, as I'm rather scared about the possibilty of there being a ghost in my house trying to kill me. 

:|

WTF. 

ever since my mum gave me this supposedly cursed ring, weird things have been happening, and now there's a dinging coming from well, everywhere.

I don't want to talk about it.

but, what I will say is I think I want these. 

All I need to do now is decide how to wear them without looking like an idiot. 

hm. 

another eventful couple of days :)

So, I haven't stuck my revision timetable, but ahh I knew that would happen anyway ;)

apart from a depressing failure with my statistics paper I must say that my week has been rather good. Coraline was excellent, as expected :) Although I did poo myself slightly towards the end. I think I can safely say that my diet has gone out the window, I've eaten so many bad things that I now feel so sick that I don't think I'm going to eat anything fatty for a very very long time.

Happy dayss :) 

French Toast :)

omnomnom:) gotta love it. 

my plans for some kind of uber revision day has failed quite badly, but oh well. 

I spent a large portion of last night deciding what tattoo to get (if I get the balls) when I go away on Sunday. So far everything I want to get is something I could possibly end up hating in a few years time. Damn.

I've finally found another university that will cater to my every need, unfortunately they want AAAB at AS and AAA at A2, holyshit :|

exams, and other horrible things.

exams are horrible.

doing badly in them is even more horrible. 

worse still is when you do badly in you favourite subject, on the easiest part. 

Well, this is fucking excellent. 

Other than that, my day has been good. After attempting to spar with two black belts and a black tag I felt a lot better for letting some anger out (although I didn't manage to properly hit anybody of course) I also went to the library and got myself three lovely books for history, and I plan on getting some stuff to help me understand Russia in Revolution, hopefully I'll be able to pass this so long as I revise hard enough, argh. 

As soon as I drop the habit of winding myself up I should be okay, although that's easier said than done considering certain people and certain events. 

I hate study leave, it's a ridiculous order, of course I'm not going to study. I'm just going to sit here and be pissed off for two weeks. 

GREAT. 

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