october

my only peace.

[maybe one day I'll be good enough, maybe one day I'll be able to make some sense.

or maybe I'm just completely kidding myself.

fuck.

I spend so long waiting for the bad things to happen that I

completely ignore the good things.

I keep making that same mistake, and nothing good

ever comes from it really.

so I should stop I guess.]

glad that's over:)

okay, so thanks to a midnight phone call to my dad, I now feel a lot better:)

about everything.

the best part is that it was only a 17 second conversation.

ellie is fucking amazing:)

and that's why I love her.